My name is Shalom and I am terrified.
I’m scared of everything, of myself, of people, of windows, of mirrors, of rooms, of butterflies, of time.
I have severe panic and anxiety attacks that sometimes last for more than three hours.
I can’t do anything because I forget how to breathe. I forget how to function.
I can’t sleep and it’s 01:14 AM here is South Africa.
I have two exams tomorrow and my school career is in limbo.
I’m terrified, and I keep crying, and I don’t like it.
I keep doing it, and I can’t talk to anyone because sometimes just a person’s mouth moving can send me right into a state of severe panic.